Review by Jami Macarty
In her fourth collection of poetry, If I Had Said Beauty, Tami Haaland honors “known and unknown” ancestors and searches for herself within “The lines leading to this body.” In “Prelude,” the first poem, we learn the poet’s heritage is “mostly Scandinavian, then / British, Irish, German.” Haaland is as interested in “the traits of women and men who / have made me” as she is in the “lines… deeper.”
Her investigation of her people’s “migrations, / and landings,” “their stories, their histories” is geographical, genealogical, “mitochondrial,” psychological, and spiritual. Throughout the collection, the poet poses age-old philosophical and evolutionary questions about who we are and who we “want to be.”
The unstructured sonnet, contrapuntal, palindrome, and prose poem “give form, proportion” to Haaland’s inquiry. Each form provides either a “flip side,” doubling possible inheritances, or a “line between here / and not here,” bordering possible legacies. These “deliberate pairings” of content and form substantiate the exploration of “my recessive/dominant other.”
“Double, double.” While Haaland’s meditative lyrics honor her position between “My mother, long dead,” and “my son / ahead,” she admits she’s “not content with reduction to a few generations.” Haaland’s “in a long / conversation about omens.” Her poems are populated by “ghosts,” “angels,” “shadows,” and, in a “desire” to “expand the circle,” various other beings, including dogs, flies, and trees. Each is as much a “part of the conversation” as the “watcher,” “protector,” “coward,” and “romantic” aspects of herself.
Instead of a fixed identity, Haaland views herself in a process of “becoming” that allows her to continually rethink her existence, which in turn allows her poems to reframe it. Death’s “eccentric shadow” coexists with beauty’s “brilliance on a hill / covered in blossoms, each / a cluster, a spear.” And in Haaland’s poems, each is “a glimpse of the infinite.”
If I Had Said Beauty by Tami Haaland. Lost Horse Press, March 2025.
